Miscellaneous notes

At first I didn’t intend to update until I was completely satisfied with my site, but after some consideration I’ve decided to scrap that and start making posts. Eventually I will get around to making everything look better, but as long as people can read and comment on my posts, there’s no real reason to hold back on posting. That and there’s been some stuff I’ve wanted to write about that I’m too impatient to hold off on.

Before I get to that (subsequent posts), I might as well go over my intentions for this site.

Many years back (we’re talking late 90s) I started a blog because I was starved for attention and it was what people I knew online were doing. I thought if I did it too, maybe people would understand me better and allow me to become closer with them. I was desperate to be liked.

It’s not uncommon for kids/teens to be like that, but I think the difference with me was that I was already facing issues of feeling isolated due to various circumstances in my life (bullying, depression, living in a rural area, etc) Due to those things, I feel I was even more desperate for some kind of popularity than your average teen.

You might expect that as I’m speaking of the past that things are different now, but in all honesty, I’m not so sure. It’s true that unlike back then I recognize that my efforts were mostly attention seeking, but that doesn’t mean I have somehow transcended above that. I would still like the blog to help people understand me better and for it to bring me closer with people. I still would like attention. The only thing that’s really changed is my desperation for it has decreased a couple magnitudes

That’s okay with me though. I honestly believe that it’s normal to want attention, and accepting it is the first step towards cultivating proper behaviors for receiving it. Denying it would only create problems down the line as you engage in rash behaviors that you wont fully understand (from my observations)

With that aside, let’s get down to some business. Posts will pretty much be when I feel like them (one a month at the least and maybe 4-5 at the most) I will not be advertising them at first (as I’ve taken a break from social media) but when I do inevitably return to it, I will most likely only advertise a few of the ones that I feel are good representations of my content.

(In other words, the best way to keep up to date with all the posts is to just keep checking)

That’s all I’ve really got to say for now. Any questions are welcome in the comments (common sense rules apply)

My comeback now in progress

This is more-or-less a placeholder post for anyone visiting the site while it’s under construction.

While you’re here though, I’d like to take a few minutes of your time to rant about how ridiculous it is to set up a simple WordPress blog style site like this one.

Initially, it’s pretty easy to buy a domain and webhosting. A lot of times the place where you get your hosting will offer deals where you can get both managed by them. This can be beneficial for beginners, although I will say there are reasons you’d want to have the domain and hosting on different services (though I don’t remember them) I, for example host my site on hostinger and host my domain through Iwantmyname.

If you buy the domain with the hosting, the provider will usually set everything up for you. If not, you have to set up dns/nameservers to make sure your domain points to where you have your site hosted. For me, it was a process of finding out hostinger’s nameservers and logging into my domain host and pasting them into the nameserver’s section. This can be somewhat confusing to figure out if you have the hosting and domain with separate companies, but not too terrible.

The real frustration comes with setting up WordPress. While the actual installation is pretty easy (a lot of hosts will give you easy one-click installs for it) the frustration comes from getting your WordPress blog to look and act in the way you want it. In other words, the biggest hurdle is creating a design that you find satisfying.

If you’re hoping to use something simple like what I have, then you’re going to be disappointed to learn that 90% of the themes you’ll find wont apply. Instead what you’ll find is stuff that’s more suitable for a business or a law office site. High image usage with low amounts of actual content (note: this happens regardless of whether you even specify things like blog,simple, etc or not)

At least there’s still 10% right? Wrong. About 99% of the time you find something that looks good, you’ll find that it has some style choice or design thing that just doesn’t vibe with you. Maybe it’ll be an ugly footer or the designer put two search bars close to each other (actually happened with me on one of the previous layouts) Whatever it is, it will bug the crap out of you and the theme for whatever reason wont actually have an easy way to change it.

This is where you’re given two choices. If you know a bit of HTML and CSS you COULD go into the theme files and try to edit them to suit your needs (I’ve done this quite a bit) The big problem is that if you’re not an expert, it can often be hard to find out what exactly you need to change. Themes have a lot of files in order to make sites look uniform across various devices, and sometimes messing with things can either do nothing or make the entire thing break.

The other choice is to try to ignore whatever bothers you (Sometimes the content matters more than how something looks) I can’t personally ever choose this one though, and if I can’t edit something to look like I want it to, I’ll usually just end up looking for another theme entirely until I find that 1% of themes that have enough of what I want.

That’s a small look into what I’m going through right now. While I think I’ve found a theme that I can repurpose the way I want things, I also wouldn’t be surprised if in a day I find something I can’t change that will drive me to look for another one. I also wouldn’t be surprised if that repeated several times before I just got sick of it all and finally settled on something. Hopefully it doesn’t come to that dark future, but if it does, you’ll know why.

Actual posting will start up in March, I think.